guard your heart

Um, I really wanna take communion.

We haven't done this in forever, and here's my thing.

I have to take communion more than just at church, otherwise I think I would die.

Today is a day where I actually genuinely need the body and the blood of Jesus.

I am so imperfect.

[laughs] I am so far from perfection.

I am so far from being like Jesus, and I need him for that reason.

I need Jesus.

I need Jesus.

Today was a day, and yesterday, where it's like we can look at all the things that are going wrong in our day, or we can look at all the ways that we really are messing up.

I've messed up.

I've been messing up the last couple days.

I've let my emotions get the best of me.

I haven't been my best self.

I have honestly, yes, blacked out, and I'm like, "What am I, what am I even-- What reality am I living in right now?" You know? And it's like we could focus on all of that, or we could just focus on the fact that we have Jesus in the midst of that, and thank you, God, that we have him.

Like, I actually just need Jesus.

And it's in the moments where I'm struggling the most, where I feel the weakest, where I feel the most vulnerable, where I feel the most unstable, that I am so grateful for Jesus.

Like, I just think it's so easy to take for granted his goodness when things are good.

Jesus is actually so much sweeter to me in the midst of me honestly feeling and being a little unhinged.

[laughs] It's actually in those moments that he's the sweetest.

So I'd love for us to take communion, and if you guys don't have the elements with you or you don't have them on hand at home, that's totally okay.

We can all still just pray together.

But yeah, I just, I really need his body and his blood.

You could even go get some bread and some juice if you've got that in your kitchen.

And, or yeah, I can just, I can pray for all of us.