Aug 25, 2026 · 55 min · 12 segments
Malaya Bayanihan, also known as Emil Cañita or @babydilfx online, is an artist, advocate for those living with HIV, sex worker, and spectacular human. Incredible musical selections and blissful…
Malaya BayanihanGuest
Andy GottHost
Yeah, like, it was hard, but my mom understood why, and you know, it was hard 'cause I was practically kicked out of home because it just wasn't fitting in.
I ended up living with a couple of sex workers at that time who taught me how to do the tricks.
I think about this a lot when we were talking to William Yang's interview, and it's so easy to look at the past with this rose-tinted glasses.
And in a lot of ways I do look at them with these glasses because it's taught me a lot of how much I can be resilient with, and how I can survive, and what my body is capable of going through.
Now I should be all fine then." You know, whatever happens, I know I'm gonna be okay.
... you were teaching yourself how to live, how to survive, how to be in the world, and it's one of those many queer superpowers, I believe, that we're thrown into these situations where we generally have to learn a lot of these skills a lot quicker.
That rose-tinted glasses thing, I think that the human ability to look at things with rose-tinted glasses is actually like a protective mechanism because, you know, we just simply cannot dwell in the darkness of our past forever or we just wouldn't get out of bed.
So I think it's like the brain's ability to kind of sift, filter through the crappy stuff and, like, surface the really special stuff.
Yeah, like, it was hard, but my mom understood why, and you know, it was hard 'cause I was practically kicked out of home because it just wasn't fitting in.
I ended up living with a couple of sex workers at that time who taught me how to do the tricks.
I think about this a lot when we were talking to William Yang's interview, and it's so easy to look at the past with this rose-tinted glasses.
And in a lot of ways I do look at them with these glasses because it's taught me a lot of how much I can be resilient with, and how I can survive, and what my body is capable of going through.
Now I should be all fine then." You know, whatever happens, I know I'm gonna be okay.
... you were teaching yourself how to live, how to survive, how to be in the world, and it's one of those many queer superpowers, I believe, that we're thrown into these situations where we generally have to learn a lot of these skills a lot quicker.
That rose-tinted glasses thing, I think that the human ability to look at things with rose-tinted glasses is actually like a protective mechanism because, you know, we just simply cannot dwell in the darkness of our past forever or we just wouldn't get out of bed.
So I think it's like the brain's ability to kind of sift, filter through the crappy stuff and, like, surface the really special stuff.
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