The end of seeking is NOT what you think

Okay.

Hi, Zubin.

I've watched your videos for the last two years.

Thanks to your work and that of others like Angelo DeLulo, I had my first awakening experience about a month after encountering the whole non-duality space.

So, okay, so just to kind of unpack this, non-duality space is this whole sort of seeking to realize something that people have been telling you, which is things are not two.

They're also not one.

They're just this.

But you can't tell someone that It is a realization.

So people then feel this call for whatever reason, energetically, and they go down the rabbit hole.

Maybe they find Angelo's videos, maybe they find Rupert Spira or Muji, or maybe they find Jim Newman or Tony Parsons, or maybe they find any number of people on YouTube that are pointing in this way.

And they all point from their own experience in different ways and at different aspects of this jewel, which is not speakable.

It's a realization.

And it's impossible to know what anyone's realization is.

But every now and again, you'll get an email like this, because it goes on, where from my own experience here, this, this, it's so obvious and clear that this person is having the realization is identical, right? because there's only this.

So it can't but be identical, it's filtered through our own conditioning and all that.

So let me keep going.

It's been a tumultuous two years since then.

So after this first experience of awakening, and often that's a glimpse or an insight or a major shift where you kind of, there's an immediate realization of what this is.

And then it's kind of co-opted by the mind again, it's turned into another attainment, another identity.

And he says, it's been a tumultuous two years since then, feeling contracted, then expanded, feeling confident, then ignorant, feeling nothing, and then feeling too much.

Always trying to reach some goal.

Always trying to make this feel okay somehow.

And I read this and I was like, oh, this is it.

I mean, this is the, like in many ways after that first glimpse, Suffering increases because now it's kind of seen this clarity of what this is, this, this, which is not speakable.

It's just this with nothing there to experience it.