Aug 19, 2026 · 59 min · 13 segments
Send us Fan Mail Retirement? Not this time. This episode goes somewhere much darker—and much more redemptive. In this powerful episode of the…
Austin RampGuest
David PasqualoneHost
And I don't want to, I don't want to jump ahead in your story, but I want to make sure we don't miss a critical points either.

So up to this point in your life, you said early on in your childhood that, You had anxiety and shame.

Anything in our lives not dealt with and resolved, it just builds and gets worse.

And in a moment, our lives can be healed just by letting it go, right? So I don't want to get ahead of your story, but was there something in your childhood that brought this anxiety and the shame and this self-medication that you haven't dealt with yet? Or are you getting to that in the story?

When I was two years old, my uncle, who I got very close to later in life, was dealing drugs.

Nobody ever said, hey, we we saw these pictures of how they tied this woman up and killed her and all these different things.

The solution that they had was we're going to drink at it and we're going to forget that it happened.

And so that was the energy that was going on by my caregivers at a very young age.

When and what I make up and I don't know this for sure, but what I make up is after a number of years of these types of feelings inside of me, my little body didn't know what to do with it.

And I don't want to, I don't want to jump ahead in your story, but I want to make sure we don't miss a critical points either.

So up to this point in your life, you said early on in your childhood that, You had anxiety and shame.

Anything in our lives not dealt with and resolved, it just builds and gets worse.

And in a moment, our lives can be healed just by letting it go, right? So I don't want to get ahead of your story, but was there something in your childhood that brought this anxiety and the shame and this self-medication that you haven't dealt with yet? Or are you getting to that in the story?

When I was two years old, my uncle, who I got very close to later in life, was dealing drugs.

Nobody ever said, hey, we we saw these pictures of how they tied this woman up and killed her and all these different things.

The solution that they had was we're going to drink at it and we're going to forget that it happened.

And so that was the energy that was going on by my caregivers at a very young age.

When and what I make up and I don't know this for sure, but what I make up is after a number of years of these types of feelings inside of me, my little body didn't know what to do with it.
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