How to speak to G-d in the month of Elul

Okay, everybody, we have Nechama Shusterman with us.

And I love that this is on your mind because this has really heavily been on my mind and how I might go down the chat, you know, dark hole today because I just, I'm so excited this worked out and I want to hear more from you.

And it's probably be more than 20 minutes, but I really want to tap into this month

of the king being in the field,

Hashem.

And we know what that means in our heads because we've been, some of us, me and you for sure, have been brought up with this concept again and again.

And yet I don't feel any different.

I want to feel different the way I can converse with Hashem and really feel it in my body and a relationship.

And I'm like, I have more access and there's this pressure on having more access.

And what am I asking? What do I want? And then I heard this podcast today of the servants.

If you keep asking, you're not getting because you're lack and you're pushing away and you have to ask Hashem different things.

And I'm like, it's just a lot.

And for those of us, I know this is what's always back to me because I'm a searcher.

I want to know.

how do I really have this conversation where I, I want it to feel reciprocal.

The relationship with Hashem.

Yeah.

I want to feel like I know when I'm talking to my husband and I'm talking about something that's hard or I want to change or something like there's a person there who's responding to me.

And sometimes it just feels

like we're

talking into the void.

So yeah.

Yeah, definitely.

I have a lot to say.

I don't know if you want to start with a specific point or question or I should just.