If you're telling me you're closer now, then are you far the rest of the time? And does that mean my prayers don't count as much? Am I speaking into a void there?

Yeah.

So the question is what is different now? Because something, if we trust the transmission that we're receiving through our teachers.

And through this mystical path, there is something that's different now.

So what is that thing? And the way I've been working with it is that there is something that is available.

There's some invitation.

There's some threshold in which I can choose to come into deeper coherence.

It seems like we have the choice to step into it.