My Ex Killed My Children | Claire Throssell

And I had them both sprayed with my perfume because the thing is with, with children, they, they leave footprints and handprints in your heart and your soul.

Paul took half of my life when he died, and Jack took the other half.

Their final farewell, it took all the strength I could just to follow them.

I'd had them dressed in their favorite things.

So, Paul was in his running gear, and Jack was in his band uniform.

But what made it incredible was there was hundreds and hundreds of people there, and they formed a circle of love around the church.

So, strangers were stood next to strangers, but linking arms or holding hands or putting their arms around their shoulders.

They were a s- a circle that never broke, and it's a huge church, and it's three deep- This is in Penistone.

Yeah ...

in Penistone, St. John's.

Huge church, and the ring was all the way around the church, and it was three deep.

It was almost like everybody was coming to make sure that Jack and Paul were safe for the next stage of their journey.

All the shops were shut.

Everybody was stood outside the shops, and the police gave them a formal escort and s- saluted when they went past everybody.

They saluted his courage because most people would not have done what Jack did.

Jack chose to help his brother, and he lost his life believing he saved the life of his brother, 'cause I never told him different.

He'll know now, and I hope he forgives me for that, but at the time, I just did what was best for him.

But more than that, the community rallied round and rebuilt the house.

Tradesmen just gave materials and their time for nothing.

Volunteers cleared the house out that was burnt to the ground.

They rebuilt it like a phoenix from the ashes.

But they gave me the chance to see that humanity was still there, that the world wasn't all bad.

And I made a conscious decision right from then to hold onto that and to go down the path of not giving in, not hating the world and everybody in it.

The person I hated, I couldn't get to because he took his own life at the same time.

I had to try and make a difference for Jack and Paul and get their voices out there because Jack never had his interview with Cafcass.