Why We Keep Choosing What Hurts Us with Yassine Darkaoui

Before we go to this transition, I want to dig a little bit further.

If you were to reflect on that 10 years, what was the pain underneath the behavior? What do you think drove you with this negative energy that you created for yourself?

I would say that it was understanding too much.

And feeling helpless, that's very important because I understood how, I know how things are running.

And now I can talk about it without feeling bad, without feeling helpless.

But at the time, I could understand politics.

I could understand finances.

And I was asking myself, okay, why do we have wars? Why do we have this? Why do we have people in the streets? Why these politicians are all corrupt and people still vote for them? Why societies...

is managing such chaotic way why all of this

so the darkness that you saw that exists within society you took it you really you took it in and and yeah it's very difficult for you to process and you're like almost running away from that then

Yeah, and then, you know, that darkness became the only thing I could see.

I didn't see the other side of things, which, you know, you wake up in the morning, you have a blue sky and life and beautiful people.

Society can be crazy, but beauty is sitting there.

Of course, of course.

What was your childhood like in Morocco, you know?

You seemed to be a super smart guy.

You were, like, very motivated in terms of your thirst for knowledge.

You did a lot of sport.

You're a good athlete, et cetera.

What was your childhood like?

Well, look, my mother was alcoholic and she had a borderline disorder.

So that's also something that will, how can I say, affect me a lot.

So when you

live with someone

with a mental disorder, it doesn't matter how, I mean, you are a kid.