20. Listening to Your Body ft. Leia Morshedi | Intentional Oversharing with Neely

Did you want to go into that?

Yeah.

I don't want anyone to think I'm not grateful for the medication.

I was put on a stimulant and an anti-anxiety medication because I was diagnosed with ADHD and OCD, which now looking back with all the information they have on autism, I'm not diagnosed, but I'm fairly certain the OCD is like a little bit of autism mixed in, so ADHD.

Not that concerned about the diagnosis because the tools I already have, and that's really what it's about.

But to your point, taking yourself off the medicine, my drive for being off medicine was controlling.

Like, I'm not going to have medication control me.

I don't.

I don't need, I don't want to have to need something to be normal.

And I should be good the way I am.

And I can handle all the things that the world throws at me.

And I'm just going to bare knuckle through it.

And I would take myself on and off medication.

And I did, that was in one of my little episodes when I started college.

And I became suicidal overnight.

grades of all things i could not i couldn't break an a in composition one and became suicidal over that because i was in high school i i resumed through all my classes i got out early i could have graduated early but my mom wouldn't let me so similar like advanced and i just wasn't used to this failing

i didn't

have to try so hard here and then i'm not even getting results

Yeah.

Well, and I also just want to call out that in your like what you're describing, it sounds like failing for you was not getting an A.

Right.

So it wasn't even actually failing.

Oh, no, no.

I have a phenomenal story about probably what pushed my mom.

I can't remember if this was before or after my diagnosis when I was younger.