I Haven't Had a Drink in Over Two Months. Here's What Changed | Broken Healthcare Podcast #94

So, you know, look, let's be honest.

There's a huge difference between a therapeutic psychedelic journey and two idiots eating mushrooms in a parking lot at a fish concert.

I'm not saying I'm not down with that, but that's a different story, right? So...

There I am, take the mushrooms.

I'm in a controlled setting, a controlled environment.

I have a guide who's led, you know, thousands of people on this journey.

I've prepared mentally for it.

I've put the work in, right? And so now I've taken the mushrooms and my guide tells me to put my AirPods in, lay back on her couch.

I had a blindfold, pull the blindfold down, you know, the kind that you sleep with.

And I'm thinking, well, you know, there's no turning back now.

So it's on, right? And then it started, right? So for me, it was, I started seeing colors and patterns and, and music, and obviously there was a playlist.

It was an incredible playlist.

And for me somehow, I chose one playlist, but when I was there and, you know, I don't know, maybe a little anxiety, maybe a little nervous, although not very much, but for whatever reason, The playlist that I selected was not the playlist that I ended up listening to, but it seemed to be the right playlist for this trip because it was completely immersive.

I was in another world.

And at some points, I felt like I was floating through the universe.

At other points, I felt like I was emotionally being audited by God.

And the word that kept coming to me the whole trip was submit.

Surrender.

Let go.

That was really the theme of the journey for me.

And that's not easy for me.

I'm a punk from Queens.

We don't surrender.

We don't give up.

But every time I stopped...