Savannah HarrisGuestBrentHostTonyHost
And so I start going and trying to find all these temporary satisfactions and whatnot.
Because you wanted to kill yourself, but you made a promise basically, I can't do that.
So you're like, the next best thing is I'll just kind of numb myself as much as I can.
I was like, I can

never do that to my family again, so let me find something that's going to keep me here for them.
limbo zone where you can't leave, but you also don't want to be there.
Right, yeah.
You're just numbing yourself through day to day.
Like the walking dead.

Without my family and the impact, like I come from a big family as well, but we're all super close knit and whatnot.

And like my daddy and my parents, like they've always like when I was younger, I was super on fire for the Lord.

And like there was nothing that could like damage or break that and whatnot.


So then I was like, okay, well, if I can't, if I can't say I don't believe in him, I'm going to say I hate him because I do.

I, I think you're terrible because how are you going to let all this happen? Like how, you know, just kind of blaming him for everything.

Cause I didn't really know where else to put the blame and didn't really know how to, I'm like, you see everything that's going on and you're not doing anything about it.

And so I start going and trying to find all these temporary satisfactions and whatnot.
Because you wanted to kill yourself, but you made a promise basically, I can't do that.
So you're like, the next best thing is I'll just kind of numb myself as much as I can.
I was like, I can

never do that to my family again, so let me find something that's going to keep me here for them.
limbo zone where you can't leave, but you also don't want to be there.
Right, yeah.
You're just numbing yourself through day to day.
Like the walking dead.

Without my family and the impact, like I come from a big family as well, but we're all super close knit and whatnot.

And like my daddy and my parents, like they've always like when I was younger, I was super on fire for the Lord.

And like there was nothing that could like damage or break that and whatnot.


So then I was like, okay, well, if I can't, if I can't say I don't believe in him, I'm going to say I hate him because I do.

I, I think you're terrible because how are you going to let all this happen? Like how, you know, just kind of blaming him for everything.

Cause I didn't really know where else to put the blame and didn't really know how to, I'm like, you see everything that's going on and you're not doing anything about it.
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