How Do I Live vs. WHAT AM I? | Tuesday Zen, LIVE

And um, there are days when like today I was just, I went there and I was like, "Yeah, this is a no." Like, uh, like Zubin does this because this thing feels good when it does it.

And when it doesn't it's kinda like, "Yeah, this is not happening." Like there's nothing really pushing to do that.

Um, which is different, right? 'Cause when you're fully kinda here with a goal and all that you're, you're living in kind of this thought imaginarium, right? By the way, thanks to Emma in the UK for sending me The Imaginarium, uh, Notebook.

I'll have to show it on a show one-- it's in my studio right now.

Um, you're living in the imaginarium and you're always trying to push and pull on reality.

But today reality was like, "Nah." So went to the gym, moved a few things around and was like, "Nah." Left, went to the grocery store, saw my buddy, just hung out and then, uh, came home and had the luxury of just climbing into bed and taking a nap.

And then after I woke up I was like, "I'm gonna do a live show," 'cause that's what arose and here we are.

[laughs] So I don't know.

I, I feel like the body changes in response to that.

Like um, it just becomes more naturally what it is and that could be classically not attractive or dry skin or God knows what arises.

Whatever it is, this is what it is.

[laughs] Um, does Nina's graduation matter if this is all an illusion, Janice Crabtree? Uh, you know, it's strange.

It doesn't matter in the slightest like to me or my wife.

We're both like, "Uh-huh."But here's the twist.

When we graduated high school, it didn't matter to us.

So some of that is conditioning.

Like gra-- like high school is not a thing for us.

It was like, you still got college, and if you're gonna do graduate school of some kind.

So high school is just like whatever.

So just on the relative level, it's like whatever.

And yet we shower her with attention and make all the right noises because that's what the characters do, right? And then on another level, there's a, a knowing that none of this like has any particular significance beyond, beyond the infinite significance of what's appearing.

And so the way that shows up is we're like totally stoked she's graduating.

Like we're all in.

Like tomorrow we're going to or day after tomorrow we're going to some award ceremony, then the next day is the graduation on Friday.

And then, um, we're gonna be traveling, all kinds of stuff.