Hocus Pocus

Yeah, because even when the world is burning, even when the world is falling down, if you can find something to be grateful for, like, I'm going to make it silly.

I'm always grateful for my nose.

I live for my nose.

I think it's the cutest thing ever.

I grew it myself.

Thank you.

But like, I'm always like, you know, right.

Yeah.

Thanks, parents.

um but like i i'm always i'm like okay the world is fine i've been through tragedy in 24 like life has happened in 24 years and i every time i'm like oh it's the bottom of the barrel like there is like a moment like just a few years ago where i'm like on the floor of my apartment sobbing and like a friend in programs like what the And

I'm like, I don't

know, it just hurts.

And she's like, yeah, it's gonna fucking hurt, what? And it was just so crazy, but we were together in it.

And I lived through that.

And like all the people who kept coming back before me, like the sponsor I mentioned who gave me Hocus Pocus, Change Your Focus, He's got 39 years.

My current sponsor is 41 years and they're still here and they're going to meetings and they're crying and they're having feelings and they go out in the world and they're regular ordinary people all because they had all this time to be like, be grateful today.

I lost my job.

I lost my spouse.

I lost everything.

I have no money.

I have nowhere to live.

Like, I'm one of those people that in program, I almost got evicted sober at seven years of recovery because, you know, 2008 happened in the market crash and everybody lost their job.

And I was sober through all of that.

And I couldn't eat and I didn't have enough money.

And people in program paid for my rent and they paid for groceries.