From Depression and Alcohol to Purpose and Recovery with Scott French

So one, like one thing with this, because yes, you, you, you had the background, which mentally had to be a whole nother thing when you're starting this.

And you're like, I mean, were you ever like, how did I let myself get, like, get this far away? Like, what was that like mentally when you started? Yeah,

brother, man, I tell you, bro, it was, it was tough because, well, psychologically, I mean, I think we suffer more in here than we do physically most of the time for most people.

Yeah.

Yeah, you know, and so I used to beat myself up because I was, you know, I was in the military.

I had a combat arms job and I was very physical and I got out even though I was still hurt.

I was still teaching and training people in martial arts.

I had a dojo in Texas and trained a lot of people and would promote black belts and whatnot.

But my injuries, as I got older, my injuries were getting worse.

And then, of course, in karate, I broke my arm.

I broke my knee again.

I'm sure I re-injured my back doing karate again.

And eventually, I had to sell.

It was a franchise.

So I had to sell it.

And that allowed me to retire.

And so, yeah, it was really tough when I found myself, I think, I guess I was 57 years old when I found the DDPY program and when the doctors wanted to fuse my spine.

And yeah, I absolutely had a horrible inner dialogue that was going on.

Like, how could I fall in such a state of disrepair? And, you know...

But I found that, you know, looking back on it, whenever you look back, it's like you get depressed over it.

So I had to stop looking back and just look forward, you know, to what can I do to get out of this? And to be honest with you, you know, it's a daily, it's a daily thing for those of us who deal with like depression or anxiety.

And so it really is a daily thing where you have to put in the work daily to stay above water.

So that will be a whole other conversation that we get to.

And I'm glad that you opened that up with the depression because that's a huge thing that's kind of an offshoot of all this stuff being mental that we struggle with.

But the other part, so like you...