Acceptance After Breast Cancer - Letting Go of the Timeline

But what was interesting is that I was talking to one of my clients yesterday.

We had a, a call, and she has Stage 4 metastatic disease, and just like anybody else who's going through treatment, it's not linear, right? We're always learning more about ourself.

We're always learning more about our body, and she's really at a phase where she's tuning into her intuition, trying much harder to listen to what her body needs and what she needs versus what everybody outside is, is telling her to do.

And so she says to me, "You know, Laura, in the whole naturopathic, homeopathic, right, holistic approach to wellness, they often say that pain is a messenger and pain is trying to tell you something.

So do you think that after everything you went through that there's some kind of a metaphysical lesson in what you've been going through or in what that pain was telling you?" And jokingly I said, "Yes, the pain was telling me to take the damn Vicodin." [laughs] Because you know how resistant we can be to taking pain medication.

It was like, "Surrender.

Let it go.

Take the pain meds." But in all seriousness, when she asked me that question, I stopped for just a second.

I thought about it, and I said, "Yeah." I really truly believe that if we can find a lesson in everything, mine was everything happens exactly the way it's supposed to.

And what made me feel like that and think like that is because I had blocked off a lot of time for the month of May.

Since the beginning of the year, I've been trying to get some behind-the-scenes projects done in my website to make it easier, less confusing, easier for people to access, and there's some other things that are just gonna be so much better for everybody when I get them done on the back end.

And so I realized I was just spinning my wheels, and I thought, "The only way I'm gonna get this done is if I block off time." And I don't wanna block off my time 'cause I like to spend time in front of clients and speaking with them.

So I did.

I think I talked about this.

I, I blocked off some time in, in May and said, "I'm putting my nose to the grindstone.

I'm getting this behind-the-scenes work done."And then I couldn't, right? I couldn't get it done.

And I had cleared the calendar specifically for that work, and yet it wasn't happening.