S02Ep.11 - The Backdoor Theory?

But in season two, it's an episode called You Aside, where I got called in to my job and I called him Mr.

Green.

So when Mr.

Green called in to the job, You know, I couldn't help him, and he was saying, like, it doesn't matter.

I'm just going to blow your brains out.

You know how some people, when they give you that, I'm going to kill myself.

When they say stuff like that, it's simply to get attention because they're hurt and they're reaching out for help a lot of times, in my experience at least.

And I told people, like, I've been like that in both elements, where I've been just trying to get attention.

I wanted some help so bad.

I'm like, if I kill myself, would you help me, please? You look for any help.

When you're going through something like that, you look for all the help you can.

And when that doesn't even work, in my experience, it seems like the next step becomes like, I'm seriously gonna do it.

I'm gonna commit what I call you aside.

and i was talking to this guy i talked to him for over 25 minutes telling him my ideals and the whole concept why i believe you're a god and even if you don't believe in god whatever you believe created everything you're a part of that and i'm just explaining it to him and i talked to him for over 25 minutes and i'm a top performer my job calls are supposed to be like six minutes and below i'd be killing it and that's what leads to like my raise and things like that but I didn't care.

And he didn't say it like, oh, it's okay, I'm going to kill myself.

No, he didn't do that.

The way he said it, it stuck with me.

It didn't seem like he just wanted attention.

It seemed like he was so sincere.

I was like, man, I can't help you.

I apologize.

You know, I don't be caring.

I'm at work.

But if I'm talking to you like as a person and you're telling me how you truly feel, I'm always, I ain't going to say always, but I try to always show, you know, care, concern.

But when he said he was, I was like, man, I couldn't help you.