The Body Knows Before You Do with Lauren Callahan | #68

You know, I, I- Self-worth, productivity, you know, if my life is so tied to what I write that day, and if I have, like, a bad writing session or I don't get to like writing how I...

I'm so bad at, like, admin tasks, like answering emails.

I have to call the, you know, my healthcare thing.

I have a ton of things that I'm like, "I'm gonna do it tomorrow, I'm gonna do it tomorrow." And it's hard to just like...

You know, my mindset is like I have to be producing, I have to be producing.

I mean, even just like going out for a walk in nature for me is working because I'm, like, pulling in...

I mean, I don't go in there with an agenda, but I know I'm gonna get, like, mystical information-

[laughs] Yeah

... 'cause nature's, like, speaking to me.

But, you know, I have-- I definitely have a-- I, I understand that, like, that mindset.

Um, you know something, you were a Reiki, you became a Reiki master, is that right?

That's correct.

Yeah.

When, when my dad died, um, which was like 2004, you know, I was, like, searching for these connections I... with him, and I, I used to go sit at IANDS meetings in the back, which is International Association of Near-Death Experiences, and I would just listen to people and then listen to people's stories.

And then I was like, "Well, maybe I'll be a, I'll become a Reiki master." And I, I took like-- I-- with a friend, I was taking some Reiki classes and, um, one of them was, you know, we would practice Reiki on each other, and then she's like, "This might sound really weird, but I communed with your dad." And I was like, "Okay, tell me more." And she's like, "Do you...

Like, I saw this brown box.

Do you have a brown box?" You know, and I was like, "Oh my God, that was my..." It was like this cedar box, and it was like my dad's thing, thing box.

You know, he just-

Yeah

... threw whatever.

His Purple Heart from World War II, all sorts of stuff in there, and it, it became mine.

And I was like, "Yeah, I do." And she said, "Well, he opened this brown box, and I saw the most beautiful golden ball I've ev-- like golden ball of light I've ever seen." And he said, um, "This is all the love I couldn't give you in, in this life."

Oh, goodness.

And I was just completely floored.

I mean, I know it, it was really the emotional connection.