Ep. 640: Even Masturbating Takes Too Much Work

Are you sure you feel better?

Like you're sleeping?

Not really.

Like today I just – and this is maybe it too was yesterday was the five-year anniversary of my mom's death.

And so maybe that's been like just subtly – you know, like I think your body remembers things like that.

So I feel like I've just been really emotional.

And I don't know if we talked about this on the last episode.

I think we did like when we were talking about the grief.

And I was like I know there's some hormonal stuff going on.

I just feel like I've been on the verge of just very teary and weepy.

And yesterday I had a really big long cry.

Like after I shared, I like looked back at my post and I saw some stuff and I just bawled.

I was like, man, I haven't cried like that in a long time.

So I've just been feeling like weepy and just – and I'm like, I don't know if it's me physically.

So I've just been taking my supplements, been trying to sleep better, trying to just take care of myself.

But I don't know.

I've just been in a funk since I've been home and just trying to figure it out.

But I will say like actually right before this call, something that made me feel better was – I was like in the back of my mind there were some things that were unspoken.

Like I was going to go see my brother and I just – like I can't swing it.

The time away, the cost right now of flights and everything is just crazy.

So I finally told him I'm not going to make it.

Let my dad know there's another trip that I'm not going to do.

Just like cutting out these things that aren't on my calendar and I feel a lot less stressed about that.

And I'm just thinking that I might – I made a doctor's appointment for another ultrasound, but I don't know.

Like I'm getting to the point where I'm feeling like I might have a hysterectomy.