EP 3:45 How To Stop Repeating Patterns in Chemsex Recovery with Juan

Send us Fan Mail Supplemental Study Guide: https://www.recoveryalchemy.org/newsletters/blog/posts/repeating Host Dallas Bragg welcomes Juan Galan — spiritual teacher, identity alchemist, and life coach for gay men — to tackle one of the most common questions in chemsex recovery: "Why do I keep doing this?" Juan explains that repeated patterns aren't character flaws but nervous-system responses — trauma-formed survival mechanisms that have lived in the body for years and can't simply be thought away. He walks through his "remembrance method," a four-stage path: the trance (identity fused to the pattern), the witnessing (seeing yourself repeat it but unable to stop), the descent (the hardest stage — going within to face shadows, shame, and exiled parts through shadow work and breathwork), and the return (reclaiming your true essence and purpose). A recurring theme is that "every collapse is divinely orchestrated" — that addiction, relapse, and heartbreak are initiations happening *for* you, not *to* you. Both host and guest share personal stories of separating mind from body — noticing the urge to reach for validation, Grindr, or substances, then pausing, breathing, and staying present rather than numbing the feeling. Juan offers practical anchors like the "window of tolerance" and the "90-second rule" (a trigger, if you name it and stay with it, passes in about 90 seconds). The throughline is compassion over shame: patterns once protected you, healing is a spiral rather than a straight line, and progress means reacting the old way less often while forgiving yourself when you don't. The episode closes with an invitation to go deeper through Juan's "Five Days to Come Home" mini-program and a reminder that lasting recovery means descending into the body — not just quitting the substance. Contact Juan:  Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/healingwithjuan/ Free Private Podcast Experience: https://juangalan.co/private-podcast-experience/ 5-days to Come Home Challenge: https://juangalan.co/coming-home-challenge/ 1:1 Mentorship: https://juangalan.co/coming-home/ The AfterMeth: Join our Facebook Community: https://www.facebook.com/groups/theaftermeth/ Dallas Bragg Subscribe to our weekly newsletter: https://www.drdallasbragg.com/newsletters/blog Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/drdallasbragg Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/drdallasbragg/ TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@drdallasbragg YouTube: The Aftermeth Podcast X: https://twitter.com/Drdallasbragg Free online course to End the Relapse Cycle: https://www.drdallasbragg.com/offers/e7c2Eo22/checkout Meth-Free Blueprint EBOOK: https://www.drdallasbragg.com/offers/o8qFhK5i/checkout