Oct 29, 2026 · 13 min · 6 segments
I pray this changes your heart like it has changed many others 
My whole family was racist, and especially my step-grandfather on my mother's side.
He was a very hateful man, and he hated black people with a passion.
His family was racist, and their household was full of aggression.
A lot of
alcoholism in our home and fighting all the time.
And my mother was constantly cheating on my father.
My mother drove my father into bankruptcy.
And then my father was faced with losing everything he had worked hard for.
And I watched my father one night take a pistol and put it to his head and blow
his brains out.
Johnny was only 11 years old when his father died.
Immediately after the funeral, his mother threw Johnny out and moved her new boyfriend in.
She goes, I don't care
where you go or what you do, but you're going to get out of my house.
And she put me on a bus and sent me out to California to go live with my sister.
His sister's live-in boyfriend was abusive.
That just made me hate that much more.
And so I was hating everyone.
And at 14 years old, I felt like committing suicide myself.
I was thinking seriously about ending my life so I could go be with
my dad.
Then Johnny saw a man on TV who reminded him of his father.
My whole family was racist, and especially my step-grandfather on my mother's side.
He was a very hateful man, and he hated black people with a passion.
His family was racist, and their household was full of aggression.
A lot of
alcoholism in our home and fighting all the time.
And my mother was constantly cheating on my father.
My mother drove my father into bankruptcy.
And then my father was faced with losing everything he had worked hard for.
And I watched my father one night take a pistol and put it to his head and blow
his brains out.
Johnny was only 11 years old when his father died.
Immediately after the funeral, his mother threw Johnny out and moved her new boyfriend in.
She goes, I don't care
where you go or what you do, but you're going to get out of my house.
And she put me on a bus and sent me out to California to go live with my sister.
His sister's live-in boyfriend was abusive.
That just made me hate that much more.
And so I was hating everyone.
And at 14 years old, I felt like committing suicide myself.
I was thinking seriously about ending my life so I could go be with
my dad.
Then Johnny saw a man on TV who reminded him of his father.
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