?E! #31 - Can You Build a Meaningful Life on Uncertainty? | with Daniel Vassallo

So it seems like when you were in Dublin and then into your journey to Seattle, you were pretty happy with the, or you were still young, you were learning, you know, you were making progress in the organization, I imagine.

Let's go a little bit further down the road.

Like at what point did you start, I don't know if disillusioned is the right word, but like what point did you start thinking maybe this isn't, maybe this is not something I want to continue with?

Yes, yes, yes.

So it happened probably at my fourth year.

This was about 2015.

So I joined 2010 Amazon at the start of 2015.

There were some changes in the company.

We changed the manager.

I liked the manager again.

I never had any problems with people, but the work changed.

I was basically waking up in the morning, going to work, not particularly motivated.

Again, mostly it was diminishing returns of what I was absorbing, what I was getting.

I got promoted a couple of times, which again, helped a lot financially.

I was now making 250K per year, so very, very happy on that side.

We just had our first kids, so we're starting a family.

My wife stopped working, but still everything is good.

you know, good home and so on and so forth.

But professionally, especially as my role, sort of my level grew, it became more bureaucratic, right? I was doing less the hands-on tinkering with computers.

And now I'm sort of dealing with people and with executives and, you know, writing documentation that nobody reads and doing the kind of things that I felt was purposeless.

Even though, again, like if I take the perspective of the company and of the managers and the directors.

It wasn't purposeless, but for me, stuff that I wouldn't do.

And I think I have something, I think we're all different, but probably I have low tolerance than average for doing purposeless things just because they need to be done.

I sort of, I think there's a bit of a rebellious gene.

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