99. Grief Develops the Mind (Dark Matter S2E5)

Love and be loved.

We open with a flashback to Season 1, where Jason 1, Daniela, and Charlie went to the box to escape World 1.

They are met with several Jasons, and one of them assures the Jasons that they're not there to stop them, but to say goodbye.

We then follow that Jason.

We'll call him Jason 1A, as he forlornly contemplates suicide.

He almost jumps off the building, but then reconsiders, looking at his last ampule of lavender wings.

He writes something in his notebook and then goes to a world where he rings the doorbell of his house.

His mother answers.

You'll recall that we learned last week that Jason knows how to sign.

This is because his mother is deaf.

And this version of Jason's mama lost her Jason when he was 16 years old.

This episode is not interested in logistics, and we don't see Jason explain to his mother how he's now alive, but it does show us Jason moving into his childhood bedroom, reaching rock bottom, and trying to drink himself to death.

His mama offers him support but says she can't watch another son die.

So he gets himself together, making himself useful by tending to his mother's home and reading Marcel Proust's seven-volume novel In Search of Lost Time.

Then one day, Jason 1A finds another Jason who has also reached rock bottom.

We'll call him Jason 1B.

Jason A helps B get back on his feet, and Mama accepts another Jason into her home.

Jason A. builds a career for himself as a carpenter who makes chairs exclusively.

And he plants a tree in the yard to commemorate his twins, one of whom died and the other who is also now lost to him.

Then it's Christmas and there's a third Jason.

We'll call him C. They're all exchanging gifts.

And B has a girlfriend now.

And now it's been six years since Jason 1A lost his old life and family.

Mama has been diagnosed with lung cancer and the trio of Jasons tend to her as she gets treatment.

Mama encourages Jason A to put himself out there and get a girlfriend.