Run, I'm Gonna Die
Here’s how panic fueled April’s flight
Design Matters with Debbie Millman
Feb 16, 2026 · 1 hr 2 min · 23 segments
Quiara Alegría Hudes is a Pulitzer Prize–winning playwright, composer, and novelist whose work has reshaped contemporary American theater. The co-creator of In the Heights and author of Water by the…
[upbeat music] Quiara Alegria Hudes is a Pulitzer Prize-winning playwright, composer, and novelist whose work has reshaped contemporary American theater.
She's the co-creator of In the Heights, the groundbreaking musical that helped redefine whose stories belong at the center of the American stage.
Her play, Water by the Spoonful, earned the Pulitzer Prize for drama, and her writing across theater, music, memoir, and now fiction has consistently explored identity, family, belonging, and the complicated inheritance of culture and care.
We first spoke on Design Matters when Quiara released her memoir, My Broken Language, a book that traced her coming of age at the intersection of language, lineage, and spiritual worlds.
In our interview today, we will be talking about her extraordinary new novel, The White Hot, a riveting story about rage and restraint, motherhood and freedom, desire and time, and how becoming oneself can come at devastating cost.
Quiara, you've described writing and reading in recent years as something that saved your life.
Uh, became-- had to stop writing for a little while and became a full-time caretaker for a loved one who was not well.
During this period, reading is what tethered me to the fact that I still had an inner life.
I felt like a zombie because my entire being was revolving around caring for someone else.
And yet, when I read, and I'll never forget the books I read during this period, I still existed.
And so I understood in a new and, and very literal way how people have said, you know, "Books saved me." Uh, that happened to me.
[upbeat music] Quiara Alegria Hudes is a Pulitzer Prize-winning playwright, composer, and novelist whose work has reshaped contemporary American theater.
She's the co-creator of In the Heights, the groundbreaking musical that helped redefine whose stories belong at the center of the American stage.
Her play, Water by the Spoonful, earned the Pulitzer Prize for drama, and her writing across theater, music, memoir, and now fiction has consistently explored identity, family, belonging, and the complicated inheritance of culture and care.
We first spoke on Design Matters when Quiara released her memoir, My Broken Language, a book that traced her coming of age at the intersection of language, lineage, and spiritual worlds.
In our interview today, we will be talking about her extraordinary new novel, The White Hot, a riveting story about rage and restraint, motherhood and freedom, desire and time, and how becoming oneself can come at devastating cost.
Quiara, you've described writing and reading in recent years as something that saved your life.
Uh, became-- had to stop writing for a little while and became a full-time caretaker for a loved one who was not well.
During this period, reading is what tethered me to the fact that I still had an inner life.
I felt like a zombie because my entire being was revolving around caring for someone else.
And yet, when I read, and I'll never forget the books I read during this period, I still existed.
And so I understood in a new and, and very literal way how people have said, you know, "Books saved me." Uh, that happened to me.
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Run, I'm Gonna Die
Here’s how panic fueled April’s flight
Stop Asking Permission
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