Adapting to your new diagnosis Couch Chronicles No Limits

So this is the thing.

People don't talk about how you feel when you hear that something else is wrong with your body.

Something else in your body needs surgery or you have to deal with something that's going to be lifelong forever.

Shit.

No one really talks about how you feel.

And I want to talk about that today.

You know, because it's not a great feeling.

You know, you feel confused.

You feel conflicted.

You wonder what you've done wrong or right your whole life.

Did I cause this issue with myself? Did I cause myself to have fibroids and cysts? Did I cause myself to...

have lupus, which no, you don't cause yourself to have any type of autoimmune disease.

But when you find out that whatever's been bothering you for a long time has a name, it doesn't really feel better.

Yes, now I know what to pray for or what to call it or what to try to get help with.

But mentally, I don't feel good about it.

I don't feel...

I feel like, is this really my life? When you've lived a good and healthy life, pretty much your whole life, and you've been into exercising, being very active if you've always been an active person, and then you go to the doctor and they tell you, you'll never walk again.

Or they tell you you're permanently disabled or you got permanent nerve damage or something that you didn't always have, something that wasn't always an issue.

And now with it being an issue, you literally have to learn how to adapt to the new you to the new life that you're going to have to live because you can't live the same life that you once lived doing all type of dancing and cartwheels whatever you were twisting and turning you can't do all of that once you've had a 360 spinal surgery now your life has changed now you have to deal with the fact that you have this hardware in your spine and now you have to adapt to how to walk, how to move, how to get out of bed.

You have to get out of bed different.

You can't get out of bed the same.

So in your head, you're like overthinking everything.

And sometimes when you overthink something, you can actually hurt yourself.

Knowing that You have to get up every day and you're different.

You're not the same person you once was when you was hanging out with your friends, not even two, three months ago.