Andy RamageHost
Just unsure who the bloody hell I was after all these years of drinking to turn into someone that I wasn't, only thinking over time that that person was me, and then being really confused as to when I was sober that I couldn't get that person back all the time.

And often that would lead to this real sense of befuddlement in many ways, and it was always most apparent after a good few drinks, particularly with clients.

Now, I would take lots of clients away on business trips, which were glorified knees up for a slightly posher word.

And of course, whilst intoxicated, I'd turn into that extroverted, quite flamboyant, over-the-top brokery kind of guy that I was, the entertainer, the sort of last man standing always, pretty much.

Um, and then the next day, I'd meet those same clients again, and they would expect that same kind of crazy, fun guy to show up the next day, only he was nowhere to be seen.

In fact, it was a much lesser version of me because now I'm hungover, jaded, anxious, haven't slept.

I'm in a world of trouble, and I've got to perform a- and I can't get back there.

Just unsure who the bloody hell I was after all these years of drinking to turn into someone that I wasn't, only thinking over time that that person was me, and then being really confused as to when I was sober that I couldn't get that person back all the time.

And often that would lead to this real sense of befuddlement in many ways, and it was always most apparent after a good few drinks, particularly with clients.

Now, I would take lots of clients away on business trips, which were glorified knees up for a slightly posher word.

And of course, whilst intoxicated, I'd turn into that extroverted, quite flamboyant, over-the-top brokery kind of guy that I was, the entertainer, the sort of last man standing always, pretty much.

Um, and then the next day, I'd meet those same clients again, and they would expect that same kind of crazy, fun guy to show up the next day, only he was nowhere to be seen.

In fact, it was a much lesser version of me because now I'm hungover, jaded, anxious, haven't slept.

I'm in a world of trouble, and I've got to perform a- and I can't get back there.
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