Divine Masculine, Feminine Energy & Radical Integrity with Oliveyah Fisch

So since COVID sort of been the next chapter, at least sounds like professionally and also spiritually or personally, has it been a straight line to the top? Have there been bumps? Are you trending in the right direction? What's the practice look like?

Yeah, I love it.

I think that if I'm laughing because it's like it's never linear, you know, like, wouldn't that be nice? Yeah.

Let's see.

Yeah, it's not been easy, but, you know, I'm so damn proud of myself.

So it feels OK.

You know, I think that's what what you get when you build your muscle of pride and when you're you're showing up for yourself so consistently when things don't match consistently.

the way you wanted it to happen perfectly, it's like, well, I did everything.

I did my part.

So I think that that feel, that part's been steady.

That part's been in alignment.

I think the parts that have been hard for me personally have been making sure I'm not falling into codependency, making sure I'm not trying to fix anybody else but myself and just stay in my lane and stay focused on what I'm needing to do.

I think that the other struggles have been around recognizing who I need to spend time with and what I need to be spending time doing.

So honoring my sensitivity, honoring my introvert, honoring what do I need to unsubscribe to and say no to.

I've said no probably more in my life over the last five years than I've ever said no, just because I have to say yes to everything.

the important things.

And so if I stay focused on that, it means I say no to so much and just grieving that no, grieving the parts of me and the timelines that I said, I'm not going to do that.

I'm not going to go to Bali and teach at your retreat center.

Thank you for the invite.

You know, it's like that kind of thing, because I want to do my pickup with my daughter at three o'clock, you know, or something.

So it's just making these decisions have been takes time.

I'll say it takes time for me to, to not follow anybody else's life, but my own and what I'm meant to be doing.

And I, and I'll be honest sometimes I'm like, Oh, that looks, that looks fun.

You know, and I'll wander away for a week or so.

And I'm like, Oh, I'm being this person, not being, you know, it's great for that person, but not me.