Final Episode, June 5, 2026

I don't know how much to share about my personal life and my own struggles, and how much of that will resonate with the rest of you, but I am a cautionary tale of Getting this head full of excitement about things that are probable, that very well could happen, maybe in my life, maybe in the world, maybe because of my astrology or something else.

And then you get this kind of mild excitement about a future that's shaping up.

And then you look around you and you see the opposite unfolding.

And you start to go, okay, well then, now what? So I've been sort of in the now what stage for the last year and a half.

Really for the last three and a half years that I've been out of a job.

It's honestly hard to imagine I can continue this without an early death.

And I know that sounds super morbid.

But I live in America, and right now everything is falling the fuck apart.

You don't have to be into politics to know that.

You don't have to follow what's going on in our House and our Senate to know that our country is going down the toilet to an authoritarian madman.

And my parents and my in-laws are both completely committed to him and have rejected... any kind of just open, honest communication with their family.

Sure, they send you the odd text every couple months.

Hope you're well.

You know, nothing actually asking about your life.

Just hope you're good.

Here's a little bit of money.

And trust me, I'll take the money.

I need it.

I'm broke.

I haven't had a job in almost four years.

But I can't think of a more heartbreaking stretch of my life to just lose that relationship that I guess was never really as deep as I thought over a fucking con man pedophile.

I'm not going to get over that easily.

And I feel like in this community, people like to do the same thing they did in the Christian communities I was in.

Use platitudes, use certain terms to smooth over life's most insane and difficult moments.

And that does not help.