Type 4 Across the Dimensions of the Enneagram

So the Four, the individualist, is obsessed with their hearts.

[laughs] They're, they're the most blatantly obsessed with their hearts, maybe more obsessed with their center than any other type is obsessed with their center.

[laughs] It's all about what I'm feeling.

I'm feeling this, I'm feeling this, I'm feeling this, and now I felt something totally different.

What do I do? It's because they want to get at who they are.

We talked about how the heart is the seat of identity, and intuitively we all can get a sense of this, that my real self, the deepest me, resides in the deepest part of me, the heart.

And when I'm trying to...

You know, we have expressions that sort of approximate that in very worldly terms, like, "I'm telling you from my heart and soul," or, you know, we grab our hearts or we, we put our hands to our hearts, we pledge from our hearts because we know the deepest me, the core of me is there, and that's where the feeling resides, and it's emanating from the real me.

But it's also where all the coverings to me reside.

All of my ego identities and all that blocks me from being who I am resides.

And the Four innocently is looking for the real me, but like all the types, settling for the ego [laughs] and the, the version of me that is more accessible, safer, and which gives me immediate gratifications and is acceptable to the world, but which actually doesn't suffice.

And the Fours, they're also most in tune with the fact that it doesn't suffice of any of the types on the Enneagram.

There's a way in which they feel something is not quite right here, but I can't put my finger on it.

And I feel so much, but what is it really leading me to? There's so much beauty, there's so much pain.

I don't know how to make sense of any of it.

I just wanna feel because I know if I feel, then I'm getting closer to the sense of aliveness that emanates from who I am.

But it's being refracted through the ego, so it's not reliable and it's kicking me around, it's pushing me in all different directions, and it's just hard to control.

And then I try to show up like, "Yeah, I'm a normal human being," but really I don't feel like a normal human being.

[laughs]

You're appearing very as thoughtful as a Four would right now.

Why are the Fours appearing so thoughtful? Because they're churning their hearts to figure out, "How do I really feel about everything? Does it connect to the real authentic me? Even though it's not the real authentic me, I'm still trying to connect to the real authentic me in some skewed version.

So I need to see, does this really come from the heart of me? How do I feel about everything in life?"

So yeah, what you said right off the bat struck me a lot, which is that the Fours are more obsessed with being in the heart center compared to any other type.

Certainly in the heart center, but also [laughs] possibly any other type as it relates to their, their center.

And sometimes they're more obsessed with turning it off than any other type.