Oct 23, 2026 · 29 min · 10 segments
What happens when you spend years feeling like you don’t belong, wondering whether you’re good enough, and struggling with things other people can’t see? In this episode of *The Unsaid*, I’m joined…
Noah MayGuestFayeHostMy first question for you is about the podcast.
Let's start from the podcasting.
Your journalism degree and everything people can see today, you have spoken about the feeling like an outcast and believe you aren't good enough.
What was that period of your life like? When you look back at a younger version of yourself, do you think people misunderstood about you or what do you wish you had noticed or understood about what you were experiencing? Yeah, well, during
that time, back when I was starting to deal with my mental health, you know, I think a lot of people just thought that I was completely fine and was completely happy and okay.
When I first started having my mental health disorders and got diagnosed with it, people just didn't really care enough to really reach out and just check on me to see if I was okay.
Which I have to kind of also give a little bit of leeway because our school really wasn't openly talking about mental health.
The furthest that I think I remember mental health being talked about was suicide prevention.
But other than that, depression, anxiety, and all the other mental health disorders that are out there, they were not really advocating for that at the time.
So a lot of us probably did not know what mental health was or have a general idea of what what depression and anxiety was like at the time um but I still wish that there were obviously signs that I was going through something because my behavior changed and just my overall persona was just different but no one really really paid attention to it because they honestly didn't really care about me that much they just cared about themselves um So feeling like an outcast during that time was just really, it was really tough because I really didn't have anyone to really rely on or like kind of have my back at that point.
Later on, I did find people, but especially during the times where it was the most severe, I wish that a lot more people would have been a little bit more caring and would have reached out to me and checked on me more during that time.
You know, sometimes you try to tell people about where you're going, so they don't really get it, you know? It's only you that can understand your feelings.
Yeah, something like
So you mentioned that you struggled with depression and anxiety, which between age of 13.
What is a formative age for me, if I think it? And you were still figuring out who you were and how you could fit into this world.
Did this struggle affect the way you saw yourself? Or was there a point where feeling differently stopped being something you experienced and something you believed was wrong with you? How did that belief affect your friendship, your confidence, and your willingness to pursue the things you wanted?
it made me feel isolated for the longest time, but just dealing with it, no one really at the time was also going through what I had going on.
They did not really open up and say, oh, this is what I'm going through at the time.
It was just a lot about, it was just a lot of like a guessing game at that point and just trying to, navigate is such a difficult time for me at that point.
Looking back now, there was there were a lot of big signs that they weren't going through mental health struggles at the time.
But due to the lack of knowledge and lack of awareness, I didn't really assume my assumptions were pretty much wrong at that point.
My first question for you is about the podcast.
Let's start from the podcasting.
Your journalism degree and everything people can see today, you have spoken about the feeling like an outcast and believe you aren't good enough.
What was that period of your life like? When you look back at a younger version of yourself, do you think people misunderstood about you or what do you wish you had noticed or understood about what you were experiencing? Yeah, well, during
that time, back when I was starting to deal with my mental health, you know, I think a lot of people just thought that I was completely fine and was completely happy and okay.
When I first started having my mental health disorders and got diagnosed with it, people just didn't really care enough to really reach out and just check on me to see if I was okay.
Which I have to kind of also give a little bit of leeway because our school really wasn't openly talking about mental health.
The furthest that I think I remember mental health being talked about was suicide prevention.
But other than that, depression, anxiety, and all the other mental health disorders that are out there, they were not really advocating for that at the time.
So a lot of us probably did not know what mental health was or have a general idea of what what depression and anxiety was like at the time um but I still wish that there were obviously signs that I was going through something because my behavior changed and just my overall persona was just different but no one really really paid attention to it because they honestly didn't really care about me that much they just cared about themselves um So feeling like an outcast during that time was just really, it was really tough because I really didn't have anyone to really rely on or like kind of have my back at that point.
Later on, I did find people, but especially during the times where it was the most severe, I wish that a lot more people would have been a little bit more caring and would have reached out to me and checked on me more during that time.
You know, sometimes you try to tell people about where you're going, so they don't really get it, you know? It's only you that can understand your feelings.
Yeah, something like
So you mentioned that you struggled with depression and anxiety, which between age of 13.
What is a formative age for me, if I think it? And you were still figuring out who you were and how you could fit into this world.
Did this struggle affect the way you saw yourself? Or was there a point where feeling differently stopped being something you experienced and something you believed was wrong with you? How did that belief affect your friendship, your confidence, and your willingness to pursue the things you wanted?
it made me feel isolated for the longest time, but just dealing with it, no one really at the time was also going through what I had going on.
They did not really open up and say, oh, this is what I'm going through at the time.
It was just a lot about, it was just a lot of like a guessing game at that point and just trying to, navigate is such a difficult time for me at that point.
Looking back now, there was there were a lot of big signs that they weren't going through mental health struggles at the time.
But due to the lack of knowledge and lack of awareness, I didn't really assume my assumptions were pretty much wrong at that point.
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