Committing to the Bit: Creativity, Chaos & Career with Heb on the Web

But speaking of, like, you know, the juggle and capacity and having enough spoons to, like, you know, do a million different little projects and tasks and appearances and making content and all of that, like...

I mean, we were just talking before we hit record about being a one-woman show.

I so deeply resonate with the struggle of the juggle, which I just coined then, and it actually perfectly encapsulates what it's like.

um how the fuck do you do it babe like honestly you're you're simultaneously a twitch streamer a comedian a podcaster tv developer now um brand partner stardew valley diehard um you know and like from what i can tell like and you know i will also admit i haven't done as much research as i could i probably saw one or two videos and i was like holy fuck i love this like you're

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But, yeah, he seemed like a bit of an all-round intersectional feminist bad bitch, you know, among many other things.

And, like, wearing that many hats, like, it is – For me, I feel fucking nuts, like at least 50% of the time.

And I feel like the other 50%, I'm just barely, barely hanging on by the skin of my teeth, trying not to have a fucking breakdown.

Like how, what's your experience? Like holding all those threads at once, you know, also treading the path less trodden in terms of like building your career and the choices you're making, like that's gotta be a whole thing, right?

It's, it's a whole thing for sure.

It's a, it's a whole thing.

Like, I mean, for one, I'm medicated.

I'm like, I'm on like three different medications for brain shit so that I can, so that I am able to function even at just a base level, like taking care of myself and whatever, so that I, I can do these things.

And then I, And then it's honestly, it feels a bit like a battle with my brain every day because I'm like, I know what I want to be doing.

I know where I want to head and what direction I want to go in.

But, you know, sometimes everything in me is...

Like there's a difference between listening to my body telling me that it's time to rest.

And then I can tell when it's like self-sabotage or, um, anxiety overthinking, like I'm scared of this not being good.

So I don't want to do it or whatever.

So literally it's just a battle daily to push through that noise.

And sometimes it works.

Sometimes it doesn't.

Sometimes I, I do it anxious or I am able to shake the anxiety before I do something.

Um, And then other times I don't fucking do my dishes that are sitting in my sink for a week, you know, because like I just like maybe I'm streaming and I'm enjoying streaming and I just like cannot get myself to do something like that.

So, you know, I kind of feel like.