I Was Attacked On A Hater Website For 10 Years, Then My Kids Found It | Ali Katz

Now, all of a sudden, I was a character featured on the website.

The website would pick up every post that I would make on my blog, in my social media.

This was back in the day when social media was kind of new.

They would take those posts, they would take that content, and they would repost it on their website with all sorts of commentary about it.

Here was the thing about the commentary.

They were very smart.

Very, very smart.

They were able to identify my deepest insecurities and then feature them on this website.

It was the craziest thing because as it happened over years, what I began to be able to see is that, first of all, they really got me.

They really understood my deepest insecurities and fears.

And they were taking them and displaying them for everyone to see.

What I really needed to see through that was that I needed to be able to see that those were my insecurities and fears.

And that in fact, this was a spiritual journey.

This was an opportunity for me to surface the things that I was most afraid of.

Have them put out for everyone to see.

And then be able to look at them honestly and eventually objectively and see that these were things that life wanted me to see.

But if a friend of mine or a close partner or intimate partner would have brought any of these things to me, I would have defended against it to my death.

Maybe even made them wrong for it.

But instead, because people who didn't even know me were surfacing these things and sharing them with the entire internet, well, I couldn't ignore it.

I had to look right at it.

And what I noticed is that if it pinged me, if it caused me to feel a charge of emotion, of defense, no, that's not true, that usually it meant that there was.

There was something true.

There was something there for me to look at.

But if I could look at it and laugh because it was just ridiculous and funny, well there was nothing true fortunately around this time i had a teacher who taught me just take everything in take it all in see what's true and poop out the rest so i was able to do that and at the same time this hater blog this hater website really impacted my children and mostly my daughter because this was happening during her teenage years And teenagers are not able to be on the same kind of spiritual journey of looking at something objectively and seeing if it's bringing them something they need to look at or something that they need to poop out because it's not true.