S3 EP21: Back and better, again :)

But for me, how have I been? I have been through ups and downs, to be honest.

I have been through different things, but I've mostly been good, to be honest.

I try my best to focus more on the positives than the negatives because negatives have no benefits to my life.

It's just going to make me stressed.

It's going to make me tired.

And it's already exhausting being like doing certain things.

So imagine adding, you know, focusing on negatives to it, to the list.

It's just going to be too overwhelming.

So my life has been very eventful a lot of things have happened i'm trying to backtrack to the last month i recorded i think that was in march so we have april may june july august that's almost six months amazing so the first half of the year was actually a really good half i won't lie especially with regards to things that i dealt with or things i had to navigate and the reason why i'm saying this is because i've noticed that sometimes really when i'm talking to other people they judge their progression and their growth based off of other people's standards and what other people are doing for example you see someone launch something i like oh my god this person and i are the same age why haven't i launched something as well why haven't i done this like look at my mates but to be honest you guys are not exactly mates the only thing that is common between you guys is probably age based off of what the person was referring to but in terms of situations in life you guys are at different places what they're dealing with or the advantages or opportunities they have access to is different from what you have access to.

Obviously, that shouldn't stop you from dreaming and using them as an example of possibility.

But it shouldn't hold you back and now make you beat up yourself and use them as an example of what you should be doing instead.

So it's very important that you focus on where you're at.

And that's why I keep reminding myself.

Because things I've had to navigate and push through, a lot of people have not had to do that.

And before, I didn't want to think about it in this perspective because...

I kept telling myself that, well, I'm not the first person to have difficult times.

I'm not the first person to have to navigate different seasons.

But that was not allowing me to be honest with myself.

You know, it wasn't allowing me to accept where I was at the time.

It wasn't allowing me to give myself some grace.

So it was just making me so hard on myself.

Like, I'm not the only person that goes through stuff, Jairie.

fix up your issues and move but that's not giving grace to yourself that's not speaking kindly to yourself that's not being polite to yourself right so I had to learn that and rewire my mind because I was just consuming a lot of content that was like very mean very mean content like in the guise of encouragement or motivation it was just very mean content and yeah that just made me feel like I couldn't just sit with what I was going through or just you know, be at peace with how God was guiding me.

And an interesting thing is ever since I graduated, ever since I left uni, I handed over, well, I try my best, but I'm still trying my best to hand over the will to God because Every time I've tried to create my own path or carve my own path without God, it has been a funny experience.

And I've just made peace with the fact that God clearly has something He wants to do through my life.