Aug 12, 2026 · 35 min · 8 segments
Life looks really different than how we once imagined it would, and we know we’re not alone in this. Maybe you never got to have the things you wanted, or maybe you got everything you thought you…
Dani JHost
Jill ColemanHost
So I wanted to talk about today the grief of not living the life you thought you were going to have, and this is why.
So I had a really fucking heavy period, and it has been awful off and on for the last three years.
And so this last period I had, I was literally at an appointment and I was like, "Oh, I need to..." I, I was like, "I think I'm leaking.
I need to get up." I, like, ran to the bathroom and pull my cup out, and just spilling blood.
And then I realized I got blood on my shoe somehow, my white Vans, and I was like, "What the fuck? How did blood drip out of my leggings onto my shoe?" So I clean myself up, I put it back in, and I'm coming out, and then there was li- sh- um, the office staff, she goes, "Oh, don't step there.
I need to wipe this up." And she's wiping up blood off the floor, and I was like, "Oh, my God.
So, like, had this terrible period, and I was, like, very emotional, and I'm thinking, "God, this has to be hormones." Like, I am just...
When my ex and I broke up, my ex-husband, uh, 10 years ago, I remembered there was the...
He was going through medical stuff, and I found out that the girl he was seeing, like, came with him to one of his appointments.
And so I had this, like, remembrance of, like, seeing this hospital and just having, like, just a feeling in my body.
So I wanted to talk about today the grief of not living the life you thought you were going to have, and this is why.
So I had a really fucking heavy period, and it has been awful off and on for the last three years.
And so this last period I had, I was literally at an appointment and I was like, "Oh, I need to..." I, I was like, "I think I'm leaking.
I need to get up." I, like, ran to the bathroom and pull my cup out, and just spilling blood.
And then I realized I got blood on my shoe somehow, my white Vans, and I was like, "What the fuck? How did blood drip out of my leggings onto my shoe?" So I clean myself up, I put it back in, and I'm coming out, and then there was li- sh- um, the office staff, she goes, "Oh, don't step there.
I need to wipe this up." And she's wiping up blood off the floor, and I was like, "Oh, my God.
So, like, had this terrible period, and I was, like, very emotional, and I'm thinking, "God, this has to be hormones." Like, I am just...
When my ex and I broke up, my ex-husband, uh, 10 years ago, I remembered there was the...
He was going through medical stuff, and I found out that the girl he was seeing, like, came with him to one of his appointments.
And so I had this, like, remembrance of, like, seeing this hospital and just having, like, just a feeling in my body.
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