I really love nothing more than being able to sit in silence with a pen and paper and create a whole vision of what I want to do in life.
Both the little things I want to do this month and the grand plans that may take years to create.
And what I've realized is that it doesn't matter if some of the things never come to be.
I was the main and sole caretaker for my mom and my best friend while they were battling cancer.
And there isn't a timeline you can control with something like that, nor do you really want there to be.
My mom had five months from the time that she was diagnosed, and Matt had three years from the time of his diagnosis before we lost them.
And I'm glad and grateful that I got to be there to care for the people that I love.
When you're going through something like that, life becomes about the right now, the struggles and the realities of the present moment.
And even the idea of planning something small is hard to do or even be excited about.
And after they were gone, I worked on finding my way back to some form of normalcy and clawing my way through depression.
One thing that I eventually realized is that I had nothing in life that I was looking forward to.
Not because there was nothing, but because I had stopped adding those moments, the little things that I could be excited about to my calendar and to my life.
Once I realized this, I made a conscious decision to start creating things to look forward to every single week.
And with that change, life slowly, slowly got lighter, happier, better, and I started to look forward to just living life again.
I really love nothing more than being able to sit in silence with a pen and paper and create a whole vision of what I want to do in life.
Both the little things I want to do this month and the grand plans that may take years to create.
And what I've realized is that it doesn't matter if some of the things never come to be.
I was the main and sole caretaker for my mom and my best friend while they were battling cancer.
And there isn't a timeline you can control with something like that, nor do you really want there to be.
My mom had five months from the time that she was diagnosed, and Matt had three years from the time of his diagnosis before we lost them.
And I'm glad and grateful that I got to be there to care for the people that I love.
When you're going through something like that, life becomes about the right now, the struggles and the realities of the present moment.
And even the idea of planning something small is hard to do or even be excited about.
And after they were gone, I worked on finding my way back to some form of normalcy and clawing my way through depression.
One thing that I eventually realized is that I had nothing in life that I was looking forward to.
Not because there was nothing, but because I had stopped adding those moments, the little things that I could be excited about to my calendar and to my life.
Once I realized this, I made a conscious decision to start creating things to look forward to every single week.
And with that change, life slowly, slowly got lighter, happier, better, and I started to look forward to just living life again.
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