Episode 896 – Shadow of Gene Key 63: Doubt – Repressive & Reactive Nature: Self-Doubt / Suspicion

Doubt when properly utilized as we've been looking in the shadow, which is a very interesting shadow, 'cause it's probably one of the only shadows that I can see that you can really make use of it in the shadow, but only as the ignition point.

In this case, what I mean is letting the paradox play itself all the way through.

If you doubt yourself, let's say in this repressive nature, then if you take it all the way to the end, then shouldn't you doubt the self-doubt? And so when, when you let it go all the way through, then at, at the end you go like, "Well, maybe this self-doubt is not really the way." Right? And you can say, "Well, that's gonna make you crazy," but not really because when you let it play its whole, um, its whole cycle, now you, you're able to actually contemplate all possibilities.

And so we're gonna be looking today into the root, obviously at the core is I'm not good enough, I'm not worthy of love.

That is doubt, and so the consequence is comparison.

We are doing comparison to everything and, and then it's never gonna be good enough.

So it's, it's just a program.

That's what it is.

And when it's on the second seal, it's difficult because it's unconscious.

It's really unconscious.

It's also unconscious on the reactive nature, but we can see the energy moving with the anger.

So in the reactive nature, we get this suspicion, and Richard Rod talks about it here on this, on this, on h- on the book, referring more to your personal relationships, but it expresses throughout all the mirror of your reality.

And what it means is not looking...

It's not really looking for an answer, it's looking for a relief.

And so it's, it's a, it's a cycle that is not allowed to, again, to go all the, all the way back to itself so that you can doubt everything and then you go, "Oh, well, wouldn't, shouldn't I doubt this doubt?" Right? But now it's angry because it can feel it.

It can feel the unconsciousness, the difference between the reactive and the repressive, and but it's lashing.

It's projecting.

The instead of taking responsibility for the third three-dimensional mirror of reality is projecting that doubt onto others.

So now you don't, you don't y- y- the your experiences, um, you are seeing the mirror in your relationships, but it goes all the way out to the world.

And so but if you let it go through all the way to, to it so it compli- completes the cycle, in the reactive nature, you will see the mirror of the world at the larger scale reaching the paradox.

And so you go like, "Well, I can't trust the pharmaceutical companies.

I can't trust the medical industry.

I can't trust the, you know, the government.

I can't trust, you know, the corporations.

I cannot trust this." And then but it has nothing to do with you.