The Myth of Falling Behind: Inside The Studio

You're like, you're like, "I didn't sign up to be listening to Sarah as therapist." [laughs] No, I promise you, I promise you, I only share things if I think that they are helpful.

My partner and I got together very intuitively in the sense that neither one of us were looking for love or to date at all, and we weren't particularly each other's type.

It wasn't good timing, and we were both at incredibly different places in our lives.

[laughs] So there wasn't really, like, any logical reason.

And so because of this, I had doubt.

Like, I had doubt.

Or I just was, like, questioning, what am I doing? What am I doing, you know? Is this, is this right? Because it doesn't really make any sense.

And my partner said, "We're gonna keep doing this for as long as it feels good and/or as long as it feels meaningful." And I think that second part is super important, because feeling good, that's usually a yes, right? This feels good.

This feels right.

But some of the time, when we are in expansion, when we are evolving, it doesn't feel good.

[laughs] It hurts.

There's grief.

There's confusion.

There's complexity.

There's overwhelm.

There's anger.

There's fear.

There's shame.

And all those experiences and sensations are not a reason to stop.

Ironically, they're often a signal that something is ready to be integrated, that there's some kind of direction or expansion wanting to happen, or some change, some growth, some different version of your life, or a different pathway, a different way forward, or different parts of you coming online, or different interests, the next chapter of you, the next phase.

And all this shame or grief or discomfort is coming to throw a energetic, psychic smoke bomb.

Of course, we also have to be discerning, and we have to know when something isn't working, and it's never appropriate to stay in situations that are abusive, that are harmful, that are extractive.

That's not what I'm saying.

I hope you understand.

I just have to always say that, right? And often, when I'm not sure why I'm doing something, which has happened with this podcast quite a bit, because when you do something for a long time, you have these moments of, "Why, why am I doing this?" Or, you know, "Do I want to do this?" Often, what brings me back here to this space is that it does feel meaningful, and it feels meaningful to be of service to you, and it feels meaningful to be of service accessibly.You know, when I was broke, podcasts, YouTube videos were immense sources of support for me, and I really love that I can offer this, and I am so grateful that this podcast is supported financially by listeners.