#291- Stopping Groinal Sensations Will Prevent Me Harming People, Right?

So Marie says, hello, Kevin.

I hope you're doing well.

I am.

I'm doing fine.

She says, I'm reaching out because I have some questions about OCD, how it manifests.

Yes, we all know.

All right.

So they say, my anxiety started around four years ago during college when I experienced what I believe was a panic attack.

And then I'm cutting out a lot of the backstory.

She goes on to say, I've always enjoyed anime.

So this is real event OCD related, is what they said.

So, I've always enjoyed anime and manga, particularly male-male romance.

As a teenager, I regularly visited a website where I sometimes encountered graphic, non-consensual, and potentially problematic fictional content, including characters who appeared quite young.

I wasn't specifically seeking that material, but I sometimes explored it out of curiosity.

Around four or five years ago, I began questioning what I had consumed and became more selective about what content I read.

My real event OCD developed out of a fear that somebody might discover material on my phone that I wasn't proud of.

This gradually turned into an obsession with reviewing my pages.

accompanied by intense guilt and shame.

This is a very old story.

We've heard this before, but this is more people have this story.

I appreciate it.

Maria, let's keep going.

My mind tells me that having encountered certain fictional material means I'm tainted or must have developed disturbing sexual interests.

More recently, my OCD has become increasingly focused on granule sensations.

I've always considered myself sexually responsive, but since developing POCD, these sensations have become a major source of distress.