Bulimia Sucks! | Episode 300 | Setback and Successes | Kristin Pardy-Morris

I know that when I, fell pregnant with my third son I was so concerned that it was going to be a girl because at that time I didn't think I would be able to do it I didn't think I'd be able to bring up a girl after all that I went through

yeah I totally feel that

and so I I believe I timed it right so it was a boy I had my own theory about how to do that and I'd spent months and months and months figuring out this out And right at the last minute, I organized it so it would be a boy.

That's what I truly believe because I really didn't think that I could cope with a girl

because of

my eating disorder.

Yeah, it absolutely is so scary.

Like I grew up, And I feel like this is part of my history.

I was a young child and then a teenager through the entire 90s and then the early 2000s when the culture around women's bodies was just thinness, thinness, the thinner the better, stick thin.

And of course there was no social media then.

And so everything that we saw growing up was either in magazines or, you know, in a music video or a television or a reality TV show that that was all we really saw what was curated by the media.

And it was just, everything was diet culture and as thin as possible, you know, it was Jenny Craig and Weight Watchers and Atkins and all of that stuff.

And so thinness and being thin, being the only type of body that was accepted and deemed beautiful had such an impact on me growing up.

And I feel like now, you know, say what you will about social media, you know, it definitely has its drawbacks and its negativities, but I also feel like because it gives, you know, everyday people a platform, you know, for just regular people to come on and tell your story type thing, I feel like there's a shift in, you know, the body positivity movement and regular, you know, everyday women coming on and saying, look, this is me.

I'm not society's, you know, deemed standard of beauty.

This is my body, whatever it looks like.

And I actually love it.

And I actually accept it.

And, you know, I'm not going to, I'm not going to try to force myself into a box that society- Because we would never hear

about it, about anybody saying that sort of thing.

Right, right.

And I just- I am, I'm so like, I watched these women get on, you know, TikTok or Instagram or whatever and, and do these and say these things.

And I think, oh my gosh, that's incredible.

Like you are incredible.

I am positive that when I was that age or, you know, when I was growing up, I would have, I would not have been able to do that.