Live with Shauna Rae - Day 13 of 100 Days

But what I took away from it was, I, it, I started to ruminate about when I left, and it wasn't my choice to leave.

I was escorted out more than once, uh, and the last time it felt familiar, meaning I was taken to a room with the n- the news director in the room, and another person was in the room who I did not know, and it was a woman usually.

It...

Well, it was, both times it was a woman.

And the last time, I walked over to that woman, shook her hand, and said, "You must be from HR at head office," 'cause I instinctively knew that I was gonna be laid off, and that's what happens is they go through, you know, like, the whole spiel and say, you know, "It's not personal.

This is a business decision," and they go through the details of, you know, your con- contract ending, and they want you to sign it.

Uh, but the HR person is there to act as a witness, but also they're supposed to be there to answer any questions.

You are allowed to take it away, take it with you, or were at the time, and have a, have a lawyer look at it.

And when I left, I believe that the person who was in charge in that moment was, I would say, more upset than I was, struggling emotionally more than I was, because that person also knew that a year ago, almost to the day, that I had had a marriage breakdown and kept it a secret from most of the people at the workplace for six months.

I did not talk about it.

I continued to wear my ring to work so no one would speak to me about it.

The only people that really knew were, uh, the producer of my show.

It was a radio show, so, uh, he had to be on the other side of the glass producing the show Uh, and one other person, [clears throat] excuse me, that was, [clears throat] this is within the building, that I trusted enough to tell.

I'm sure other people started to figure it out or, you know, maybe those people told them, you know, other people.

That's fine.

Uh, another person that was also a producer that worked in the basement where I was.

Uh, and we commiserated, you know.

He listened.

It, it-- Two males.

Uh, I truly did not trust the females within the building to keep it a secret or to even care, um, more than on a surface level about what happened to me.

I guess that says a lot, doesn't it? So anyway, when I left, I, I called the, uh, office the f- you know, later that day.

And, and you're kind of in shock, to be honest.

You don't know what to do because your nervous system is like...

You're on high alert all the time because you are constantly following a, a news cycle.

You are constantly in fight or flight.