Well,

I, so I don't know how deep I want to go into this.

I was, uh, two years ago in May, go deep, deep, uh, had a gun in my mouth.

Yeah.

And, uh, my, my close friend at the time was a sheriff who had seen lots of suicides.

And, and he told me that a lot of times people miss, um, And so in the rain at camp, I was trying to figure out how am I not going to miss? What's the best angle? Because I don't want to limp away from this thing, you know? And it was a very, very, very dark time.

I had hurt everybody that I loved.

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