Jul 10, 2026 · 51 min · 11 segments
*November 3, 1866* \_Dear Hiuching, _ *I’m sorry I haven’t written to you.* During the winter of 1866, a Chinese worker on the Central Pacific Railroad writes home every night, hoping that one of…
The HouseHostI am sorry I have not written to you.
You look very beautiful the day I left you.
I do not remember if I told you that or if you kept it in your heart if I did.
In my mind, I said, I said, I am going to Gold Mountain and...
I said, I will bring back all the gold on the mountain to throw our rice bowls.
And you were very beautiful.
And you said, even if you go to the mountain and it is bare, I will still love you.
And I think I am remembering wrong because maybe you just laughed and said nothing.
Maybe I am making it all up except for the fact that you hated it when I drank this much rice liquor.
and the fact that you are very beautiful and that I miss you.
I think the others are going to laugh.
I went away from the liquor to write this letter because I miss you.
so cold here.
Cold as the face of the moon.
Cold enough that we could lay the railroad across the country and still not escape it.
We drank the liquor just to warm our bellies.
And because it will not be here tomorrow.
Not even the bottles that came in.
The fire will take those too.
But I am not with the liquor at the bottles.
Instead, I am writing this letter to you.
The other men are going to laugh.
And Charlie, that boy is as serious as your cousin and likes the name he chose even when he is with the rest of us.
I am sorry I have not written to you.
You look very beautiful the day I left you.
I do not remember if I told you that or if you kept it in your heart if I did.
In my mind, I said, I said, I am going to Gold Mountain and...
I said, I will bring back all the gold on the mountain to throw our rice bowls.
And you were very beautiful.
And you said, even if you go to the mountain and it is bare, I will still love you.
And I think I am remembering wrong because maybe you just laughed and said nothing.
Maybe I am making it all up except for the fact that you hated it when I drank this much rice liquor.
and the fact that you are very beautiful and that I miss you.
I think the others are going to laugh.
I went away from the liquor to write this letter because I miss you.
so cold here.
Cold as the face of the moon.
Cold enough that we could lay the railroad across the country and still not escape it.
We drank the liquor just to warm our bellies.
And because it will not be here tomorrow.
Not even the bottles that came in.
The fire will take those too.
But I am not with the liquor at the bottles.
Instead, I am writing this letter to you.
The other men are going to laugh.
And Charlie, that boy is as serious as your cousin and likes the name he chose even when he is with the rest of us.
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