Surrender

But here's the other thing about making plans and thinking you're in control of your life.

I've also been someone who... really desire success and is like all about the grind and the hustle culture and the, I'm going to go get it.

And another thing that has shifted in my life this year is that we're not in control of anything.

We can't guarantee success.

And if success means you are constantly chasing something and you're never content, I don't want it.

I've been chasing this thing and not in the present moment.

And the audacity of me to think I'm in control of my future.

I'm in control of my future success.

This building, my apartment building could fall right now and I don't even finish the podcast.

There could be an earthquake in California that ends my life and I don't even finish.

We don't know what the future holds.

It can't be all about chasing a certain thing.

All we have is the right here right now.

And so when I decided I was going to do this podcast, I left the success of it and I left all the, well, I want it to be this big.

I want it to be this.

I left that behind.

I am not walking into this new journey with you hoping this becomes the biggest podcast.

I don't care anymore.

I'm not in control.

All we have to do in our lives is show up every day and be open.

God, what do you have for me? What am I supposed to do? Is what I'm doing aligned right now? I can't control the future.

Again, I can walk outside today and get hit by a car.

Was I aligned before that moment? I'm done thinking I'm in control.

I'm done trying to chase success.

I'm done trying to be big and do this and accomplish these things.