I tried speed dating for the 5th time

basically this is my time on this camp because i basically had a

10 minute spiral where i was like oh like you know i'm just like ugly that's why like i need to like

learn to do my makeup better? Should I put in an order for Charlotte Tilbury? Should I get a whole new wardrobe? Should I

get new hair? Should I just completely change my face and get surgery? Am I just completely repulsive? Is that why I'm not getting a reply? Obviously, that's not the case.

That's not true.

That's not the reality.

Do you know what? Christina, you already know this.

There's so much more to boys than just what you look like.

Maybe it's

my personality.

I just need to move on and get a life.

I'm a big believer that your romantic life isn't really a reflection of your value.

Like just because you're single doesn't mean that you're any less desirable or lovable.

And just because you're in a relationship doesn't mean that you've got everything figured out.

Like your romantic status is just your romantic status.

It doesn't say anything about you.

And that's a lot of what I've been telling myself over the past few days.

Because when you have back to back to back rejection, you can very quickly forget that.

And obviously that's in like the whole dating landscape.

But recently I have had... a situation at work where there's almost another rejection potentially.

I basically have a client where we're at a crossroads as to whether to continue our partnership or to part ways and that's been on my mind a lot lately too.

It's a really tough situation because basically she was my first client so she got a huge discount and we went together for a while and then she was going through tough spots to ask for a further discount and what i did was i cut back on what i was delivering but now that i've got other clients that are paying the full price and she's on a like discounted discounted rate which doesn't make sense and i feel really i feel so bad trying to increase the price again.

So it's literally almost like a 60% off discount and it's just not fair.

It's not fair for us to be only charging 40% of what we should charge.

We've done that for seven months now.