INNOCENCE FOR RENT5

In academics, I was one of the bunches I managed to pass, always dragging subjects from previous years.

My career was not difficult, it must be said.

Except for the months of exams, I lived more comfortably than in high school.

I noticed above all the radical change that meant going from the repression of my school, where attendance was controlled and the progress of each student looked at with a magnifying glass, to the freedom of the student in the public university.

At first, I was a little distracted.

I was shocked by the indifference of the teachers to who you were, whether or not you attended class, or if you studied or stopped studying.

I was able to overcome the initial setbacks, and I managed to become more responsible.

I didn't stop hanging out with Scarlett and others from Bikobara's group, but the new friends from the faculty burst into my social life and took the limelight.

Maybe it was because I was infected by the university environment, or because no one knew each other at all.

We were all starting from scratch.

They seemed to me to be more open boys and girls, without prejudice or desire to examine the other and judge them for their actions.

Each one could be as they really were without fear of being criticized behind their backs.

I enjoyed going out with them in Madrid or at the usual parties on campus when the good weather arrived.

I loved being able to hook up or sleep with whoever I wanted without having to think about how to hide it or limit the number of people who could find out.

Of course, always in moderation and without falling apart, despite the feeling of free will, I didn't commit any more modest acts when alcohol was running through our veins.

I think I still felt guilty about what happened on the beach.

Even my subconscious was looking for a formal relationship to make me believe that I could be and behave like one more.