Rattled: When New Parenthood Shakes You

Rattled: When New Parenthood Shakes You

Postpartum OCD, Intrusive Thoughts: What’s Happening to Me?

Jun 25, 2026 · 32 min · 10 segments

Sabrina Rudin grew up expecting motherhood to come naturally to her. She was raised holistically, she ate well, she meditated, she had manifested the pregnancy. She…

Sabrina Rudin grew up expecting motherhood to come naturally to her. She was raised holistically, she ate well, she meditated, she had manifested the pregnancy. She had the nursery. She was ready. She left the hospital and felt nothing like she expected. In this episode, Sabrina shares the story of her postpartum OCD — the intrusive thoughts that flooded in, the terror of thinking something was fundamentally broken in her, and the moment she told her husband she thought she'd "become a murderer." His response changed everything. Dr. Becky and Sabrina move through the full arc: the version of herself she expected to be, the night things fell apart, eight months of therapy, and the realization that landed years later — that a thought is a thought, and she gets to choose which ones she believes. If you've ever had a thought that scared you after your baby arrived, this one's for you. Read Dr. Becky’s blog post about postpartum intrusive thoughts. And if you’re looking for additional support, take a look at The Motherhood Center’s list of resources. **If you are in crisis, dial 988.** **\*** Looking for more support navigating pregnancy, postpartum, and life with a new baby? Good Inside Baby gives you practical tools, scripts, and expert guidance for the moments that can feel most overwhelming in early parenthood. Thank you Airbnb for making this episode possible! Host your home or book your next stay on Airbnb. Learn more about Good Inside. Follow Dr. Becky on Instagram. Hosted by Simplecast, an AdsWizz company. See pcm.adswizz.com for information about our collection and use of personal data for advertising.

Sabrina Rudin grew up expecting motherhood to come naturally to her. She was raised holistically, she ate well, she meditated, she had manifested the pregnancy. She…

Welcome & Episode Theme0:00 – 1:50

Sabrina RudinGuest

0:00

I believed all the thoughts in my head, and I took them for truth.

Sabrina RudinGuest

0:02

And now I'm someone who realizes I have-

Becky KennedyHost

0:06

Yeah

Sabrina RudinGuest

0:06

... thousands of thoughts a day.

Becky KennedyHost

0:08

Yeah.

Sabrina RudinGuest

0:08

Hundreds of thousands of thoughts a day.

Becky KennedyHost

0:10

Yes.

Sabrina RudinGuest

0:10

And I get to choose which I believe and which I just let go.

Becky KennedyHost

0:16

I'm really glad you're here.

Becky KennedyHost

0:17

This is Rattled, a show for when new parenthood shakes you.

Becky KennedyHost

0:20

And if you're new here, here's what we do.

Becky KennedyHost

0:22

We take the thoughts and the feelings and the experiences that show up in new parenthood, the ones that feel too big, too shameful, too confusing, too scary to say to anyone, and we talk about them, and we sit with them together, and we share real, honest stories.

Becky KennedyHost

0:38

Today's thought is one I think a lot of parents carry.

Becky KennedyHost

0:42

Am I ever going to feel like myself again? And the version of it that comes up today is one that goes alongside with really, really scary thoughts that a mom never imagined she would ever have about her baby.

Becky KennedyHost

0:59

Today's guest is Sabrina Rudin.

Becky KennedyHost

1:02

She's a creator.

Becky KennedyHost

1:03

She's an entrepreneur.

Becky KennedyHost

1:03

She's the founder and owner of Spring Cafe Aspen, an organic, vegetarian restaurant with locations in Aspen and New York City, and I have to be honest, she's also a friend.

Becky KennedyHost

1:14

She's a mom to three kids, and she shows up today in a way that is so honest and so raw and is going to be so helpful to every single person who listens.

Becky KennedyHost

1:26

And I have to say that she ends up sharing something her husband says to her that at first is going to make you flinch, he said what, but in the context was the single most helpful thing she could have heard.

Becky KennedyHost

1:49

Sabrina, let's start here.

Becky KennedyHost

1:50

Okay.

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Welcome & Episode Theme0:00 – 1:50

Sabrina RudinGuest

0:00

I believed all the thoughts in my head, and I took them for truth.

Sabrina RudinGuest

0:02

And now I'm someone who realizes I have-

Becky KennedyHost

0:06

Yeah

Sabrina RudinGuest

0:06

... thousands of thoughts a day.

Becky KennedyHost

0:08

Yeah.

Sabrina RudinGuest

0:08

Hundreds of thousands of thoughts a day.

Becky KennedyHost

0:10

Yes.

Sabrina RudinGuest

0:10

And I get to choose which I believe and which I just let go.

Becky KennedyHost

0:16

I'm really glad you're here.

Becky KennedyHost

0:17

This is Rattled, a show for when new parenthood shakes you.

Becky KennedyHost

0:20

And if you're new here, here's what we do.

Becky KennedyHost

0:22

We take the thoughts and the feelings and the experiences that show up in new parenthood, the ones that feel too big, too shameful, too confusing, too scary to say to anyone, and we talk about them, and we sit with them together, and we share real, honest stories.

Becky KennedyHost

0:38

Today's thought is one I think a lot of parents carry.

Becky KennedyHost

0:42

Am I ever going to feel like myself again? And the version of it that comes up today is one that goes alongside with really, really scary thoughts that a mom never imagined she would ever have about her baby.

Becky KennedyHost

0:59

Today's guest is Sabrina Rudin.

Becky KennedyHost

1:02

She's a creator.

Becky KennedyHost

1:03

She's an entrepreneur.

Becky KennedyHost

1:03

She's the founder and owner of Spring Cafe Aspen, an organic, vegetarian restaurant with locations in Aspen and New York City, and I have to be honest, she's also a friend.

Becky KennedyHost

1:14

She's a mom to three kids, and she shows up today in a way that is so honest and so raw and is going to be so helpful to every single person who listens.

Becky KennedyHost

1:26

And I have to say that she ends up sharing something her husband says to her that at first is going to make you flinch, he said what, but in the context was the single most helpful thing she could have heard.

Becky KennedyHost

1:49

Sabrina, let's start here.

Becky KennedyHost

1:50

Okay.