#173: I Was Afraid of My Own Power: Lessons From a Bufo Journey

So I was feeling called to do Bufo Alvarez for the third time, and I did it about a week ago.

And so I just want to share my experience and I'll just start off like super honest, like I've been called to do this medicine for at least three years.

The last time I did it was three years ago.

And I was feeling called to do it, but I honestly just had resistance because I know how powerful I am.

When I go into this container with the beautiful, intelligent medicine of Bupo Alvarez, And I, cause I've just been reflecting, you know, in the past week, like, man, I had such a beautiful experience.

My, this third ceremony, it was beautiful.

It was sacred.

It was powerful.

I had an ego death.

I released so much from my body.

I released so much from my mind.

I released some, some soul contracts that I just chose not to agree to anymore.

And yeah, And I kind of cleared some things from past lives and, and, and there's so much that happened, which I'll go into more detail.

But again, it was such a beautiful, powerful, potent experience.

And I was thinking to myself over this last week that I've been integrating, like, and I, and I, by the way, I'm going to, I'm going to.

give you my thought process here, but this was not from a place of self judgment.

This was really a plate from a place of curiosity and self-awareness and just kind of acknowledging how things unfolded for me.

So the thought was like, wow, I've been like, the medicine has been calling me back for at least three years and And I really took my time to come back to the medicine.

And again, like I said, I'll even admit it.

Like I have no shame in any part.

I just have no shame about anything.

But I have no shame to say that I was like just definitely resistant because this is what I wrote down in my journal.

I'm scared of how powerful I could be.

that's what I wrote down and that's the truth.

And so, and it happens to many of us, excuse me, I have, I ate something, a gluten piece of bread and it always makes my nose itch.