525 | Breaking Free from Pornography Addiction | Troy Dircks

When did you decide, "Hey, I need to take this seriously in my life"? What was the...

What was your rock bottom or the corner that you turned there?

So serious, I guess, depends on...

That guilt we talked about, that guilt was always there for me.

I didn't wanna do it.

It wasn't something that I desired to have in my life.

I always felt like I was living life 75% of the time, 80% of the time I was doing good things.

I was going to school.

I was getting a degree.

I was working full time.

I was leading my family.

At church, I was leading in different callings and doing different things.

So much of what I did was good, but when I had the choice to be alone, it was never the good things.

It was never the 75 or 80% of things that I was doing in my world.

It was that 20% anytime I had the chance to, and that really bothered me.

It bothered my character.

I didn't like that.

I read these amazing quotes about how it, you really are the person who you are when you're alone, and every time I failed that.

So I didn't have the character that I was showing in public in private.

What about, like, youth groups when they bring in, like, a cup of water and they're like, "This is pure," and they bring, like, a syringe and say there's, like, diarrhea in it.

And they put, like, "How many, how many drops in this would make it that you don't want any of it?" Which what, what lesson is that but forget the rest of this? And I, I think of in Galatians when Paul talks about our, our spirit being at war with our flesh.

Yeah.

Flesh is at war to keep us from doing what we want to do.

Or even Jesus in the garden that says, "Stay away.

I know you want to.