What you see when you look in the mirror

Each week we take one topic that affects us slimmers and we discuss it until it is settled forever.

Today's topic is what, Paul?

Are you ever going to be happy with your body? Yes.

great question victoria

um okay so again i do apologize but this is probably quite a deep one for me again i when i was really poorly all those years ago the gastric band lol um it completely didn't

have a gastric van guys we just no i didn't i was in hospital for

a while I was very poorly it completely changed my outlook on how I see myself completely because I was that poorly that I had to I couldn't walk I literally couldn't do anything for myself my mum had to help me get dressed I've got a scar that's all right down my stomach and And it put absolutely everything into perspective for me.

And I made a promise to myself then that I would never criticize.

Oh God, I'm getting emotional thinking about it.

I would never criticize myself because I very nearly wasn't here.

Well, I wasn't here.

Yeah.

So I would never look at myself and pull my skin, pick myself apart standing in a mirror because I nearly wasn't here.

So it's completely irrelevant.

That doesn't mean that I didn't want to lose weight, but I wanted to lose weight for a health reason and not for a vanity reason.

The vanity comes with it and you feel good because you're losing weight.

But for me, I feel good because I am healthier.

I am happier.

And it's not about how I look at all.

And I'm quite conflicted because I do have a little bit of loose skin now.

I'd like a boob lift.

Lots of little cosmetic things.

And I'm so conflicted about it because I don't think I could voluntarily put myself through that, the knife, and put myself in a situation...

Like going into a

hospital.