Jun 8, 2026 · 45 min · 17 segments
After 20 rounds of IVF, Erin Holland is finally stepping into one of the most emotional and hard-won seasons of her life - motherhood. 💞 In this episode of Glow Talk, Erin joins Millie for a raw and…
Erin HollandGuest
Millie PadulaHostYeah
Mm.
I felt guilty because it took five years, and my husband's close to 40 now, and he wanted-
Yeah
Yeah.
And then I think even though I'm someone who very much doesn't believe I was put on this Earth solely to reproduce and be a mother, I think I, I, I am more things than just a mother.
Yeah.
There's still something very raw and internal that yells at you, like, "You're inadequate.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Like, "Why, why can't you do this, this thing that, you know, women are supposed to be able to do?" So I think that's, that's, that's been, that's been tough to try and shake that.
And I think the further along I progress, hopefully the, the more I'm actually allowing myself, one, to believe that it's real and it will actually happen.
Yeah.
'Cause for such a long time, I was like, "This is the universe telling me that you're not meant to do this."
Yeah.
And I think that's probably something that a lot of people who struggle with fertility can relate to.
Yeah.
Yeah
Mm.
I felt guilty because it took five years, and my husband's close to 40 now, and he wanted-
Yeah
Yeah.
And then I think even though I'm someone who very much doesn't believe I was put on this Earth solely to reproduce and be a mother, I think I, I, I am more things than just a mother.
Yeah.
There's still something very raw and internal that yells at you, like, "You're inadequate.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Like, "Why, why can't you do this, this thing that, you know, women are supposed to be able to do?" So I think that's, that's, that's been, that's been tough to try and shake that.
And I think the further along I progress, hopefully the, the more I'm actually allowing myself, one, to believe that it's real and it will actually happen.
Yeah.
'Cause for such a long time, I was like, "This is the universe telling me that you're not meant to do this."
Yeah.
And I think that's probably something that a lot of people who struggle with fertility can relate to.
Yeah.
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