Episode 21 - Your Purpose Isn’t What You Do — It’s Who You Are

That's amazing work.

And I want to also go back to how...

Before you started, what was your belief system then? Because I know that you said it completely transformed, and I'm just curious how that looks now versus what it looked like before you went...

Two years before, right? You said you started two years ago, so before that.

Yeah.

So- I would say when I started, I was, I believed, because I had been doing tarot for the eight years, so when it came to, like, the spiritual path, I believed in energy.

I believed that there was something greater for us, like, you know, source or God or univer- whatever you wanna call it.

Um, and I believed in this, but there's a difference between believing and knowing, right?

Right.

And so I think at that point, I was definitely in the belief mode.

Like, oh, I believe this could exist.

But there was always-

Mm-hmm

... that doubt, right? But before that, before my father passed, I was actually an atheist.

I didn't believe in anything.

Yeah.

The only thing that you could possibly tell me to, like, get me to admit that there existed was alien life, and-

Mm-hmm

... my logic at the time was, well, obviously if we're, if we exist, why wouldn't other life exist in the earth, right? But I never thought that it was divinely orchestrated by some sort of, like, you know, God or anything.

That, it, that wasn't something that I ascribed to at that time.

So I was a complete atheist.

Uh, but then my father died, and I felt him come to me, which at the time I didn't realize that that was what was happening.

I thought it was some sort of a, like, psychological manifestation of fear, anxiety, and so I kind of pushed it aside.

Uh, but then things started happening to me that I couldn't deny, and I did the, you know, what any true scientist, because I'd been trained in the sciences.

I was getting a PhD at the time too, so it was-